Saturday

Lazy day off.  Was up until about 5 am this morning.  Jon had met up with an old friend, then brought him over for five minutes for introductions, then went back to his friend's house.  Despite Jon's friends being quite drunk, I could tell this guy, I'll call him "Chad", had shot his bolt.  There is something to looking in someone's eyes and seeing only a reflection of what they see, and nothing of what they are thinking.  Not  that he was unpleasant or rude or anything other than friendly, quite the opposite, actually, he just wasn't really present. 

There was an older gentleman in the store last night with the same clear mirror eyes.  He spent literally an hour walking back and forth between the bolt aisle and the register I wasn't using to weigh various grades and weights of bolts.  Then he left.  Then he came back and did it some more. I asked him if he needed any help, and he said "No, not at all, I just wanted to know how much it was all going to cost."  Acceptable answer.  Then he bought $5 worth of bolts with a $200 gift card, and proceeded to chat to me about getting a concussion from a 44 inch chainsaw...clear, clear eyes, quite mad.

Jon embarrassingly enough had told Chad that I would judge him in about ten seconds after meeting him before they walked in the door. Or so I learned later.  Makes me sound like a terrible person.  And Levon, frighteningly enough, agreed that I can read people easily.  I asked Jon why on earth he would tell someone such a thing.  He said it was meant as a compliment and that I am a "Bullshit Meter," of all things. So I suppose he's referring to my intuition.  I see clearly.  Sounds better than "I JUDGE EVERYONE."

So after long chats and such, it was 5 am when we went to sleep, Jon got up at 9 to go to work, I went back to sleep until noon.  Now I am lazily playing on the computer and watching Disc 2 of Freaks and Geeks. I feel drained.  I guess I was sad for Jon that one of his old best pals wasn't the way he remembered...and they are all still in their 20's.  So sad.  I can't say this has ever happened to me. The people in my life all tend to just....die in various horrible ways from disease, mental illness, or old age.  But none of them have ever had those reflecting eyes that reflect nothing of themselves.