Not exactly sure what in my mental state has changed. But, it has changed and for the worse. I just can not get myself together no matter how hard I try.
Waking up filled with dread about going to work.
Dreading driving places at certain times of day to the point of panic.
And more than the usual anxiety about being in public places.
I can be fine one moment and terrified and uber depressed the next.
I have no idea.
I had an issue a few weeks ago where I wasn't sleeping and then I had a major breakdown and depression. My husband has actually been super awesome about all this. Definitely not enjoying any of this. Can't seem to shake the depression.
I haven't had this kind of thing happen to me to this degree in about 15 years.
I also had my blood sugar suddenly drop while at work this morning. Sudden dizziness, and broke out in a heavy sweat. My legs were even sweating. Oddly, I had just eaten. Didn't last long. This is one of the reasons I no longer give blood. This would happen after I gave blood to such a degree it would get me off kilter for a week. I am prone to anemia but really don't think I'm suffering from it at the moment. Hard to know. Freaked me out for sure. Wasn't sure I was going to be able to drive home. But it cleared up and then I felt okay.
